I Hate This Me!

I hate this me. The lazy me. No not lazy even, just apathetic for no good reason. The sit on my ass me. The do nothing good me. Hell, the do nothing me!! Advertisements

PicturesΒ 

Pictures paint a thousand words. At night, alone, these say failure. The cold air hanging above the bed like a shroud to be avoided. All the while your face fills my eye-line. Your face and mine. Happy yet distant. A time past. An expensive venture become a painful reminder of what once was. I try…

For the Best

What you see is not how I feel, My fears, my feelings I always conceal. Being strong for you is all that I know, now I don’t have to do it, I still struggle to show, the pain in my heart, the tears I hold back, knowing we’ll never just get back on track, and…

Cordial Me

Cordial Me. Watered down, diluted, the Me that you see. The Me that was Me, is the Me I should be. A happier Me. Now there’s no we I still feel washed out. For the Me you can see is a joy absentee. I hope that you’ll be happier without Me We just have keep…

Friends

We knew it was coming, yet still there’s a sting. The outcome was forecast, But now its happening. Reality sets in and truth must be met. The end of “us” my lowest point yet.

Don’tΒ 

Don’t go to sleep Tomorrow lies there. Another day gone Another begun Life on repeat The same song plays The melody familiar The tempo steady. Don’t lay your head Distract your consciousness The wonders of the age In the palm of your hand Eyes dry but weeping Cant rest, won’t stop Prevent the execution The…

Lists: Films

I’ll add to this list as I remember them or watch new ones I feel are worth including. They are in alphabetical order just for ease… Preface I should start this by saying watch ANY comic book film, yes, even Ryan Reynolds Green Lantern masterpiece lol. I will mention certain comic book conversions in the…

Parenting 101.5: Teenage Time

There is a quantum anomaly that can and does manifest itself all across the world at various times. It’s something akin to the theory of general relativity, well a part of it obviously… Time does not pass at the same rate for everyone. A fast-moving observer measures time passing more slowly than a (relatively) stationary…

1 Minute at a Time

As I turn my back on the empty space where you used to be, sleep abandons me to the cold void. My body exhausted, my mind races with no finish line in sight. Time is my enemy and my saviour. Years fly by me in a heartbeat as truths unfold in the dark of night.

I’m Sorry Son

I’ve seen other posts like this but today I felt it was time to write my own. Dearest 8 year old, Son No 3… While your brothers may be older than you, they have at least had a long period of their lives where they were innocent. When they obsessed over Monsters Inc and were…

My Shinklves Hurt

I recently downloaded a new fitness app on my phone: Nike+ Run Club. I have to say it’s actually pretty good and one of the few apps I have found that gives you a coaching plan to follow for free. It does have the odd thing that’s annoying but for the price (yes free!!) it’s…

A hand written note

“Please stop arguing and I wish we could be A proper family again”. The note you gave me, and your mum, as we sat, and we fought the old fight. A penny dropping hard from an extraordinary height. The thought that I’d had, that you’re coping so well, so far from the truth, it is…