So Tired

So tired, yet still I’m awake My head wants sleep that my heart won’t take. Too many thoughts, worries and fears. So many memories, so many years. Nothing is certain, stability gone. Everything changing, whether right or wrong. Time is the enemy, another year past, surely the next not as bad as the last? Our…

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I So Miss My Boys

The house is so quiet, a distinct lack of noise. The energy’s left here. I so miss my boys. The floors have no radiance, the walls sound hollow. No longer a home, just a house, full of sorrow.

For the Best

What you see is not how I feel, My fears, my feelings I always conceal. Being strong for you is all that I know, now I don’t have to do it, I still struggle to show, the pain in my heart, the tears I hold back, knowing we’ll never just get back on track, and…

Friends

We knew it was coming, yet still there’s a sting. The outcome was forecast, But now its happening. Reality sets in and truth must be met. The end of “us” my lowest point yet.

Endings

Heart breaking. All my own work. 17 years flew by. Now they fly away. Hurt beyond words. Tears uncontrollable. As they should be.

Into the Woods 

Decision made. Heartbreak inevitable. Certain of only our love. Yet neither of us feeling it fully. Too much doubt and pain. The forest of our love killing us. Slowly blocking out the light. Dreams dying among the leaf litter.

Decision Decision

Decision time. A choice to make. The right one please, for everyone’s sake. Try again? The battle of old? Or fight new battles? Let fate unfold.

Aaaarrrrgggghhhh

What to say? Where to start? Feel my life being torn apart. Love is painful, but a pain I crave. A lifeblood I struggle to keep or save.